Name:Jessica Location: Richmond, Virginia, United States Birthday:8/17/1990 Gender:Female
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summer needs to be extended, summer needs to be longer, but i want to be at school now. august is just starting to hit me, and i have so much to do before i leave. i still have a month of work however work makes the summer fly by which is kind of what i'm scared, i still need to get in the gym and learn everything again, i still need to make more money to save. i don't want to leave mechanicsville i finally i have usa back and i finally feel like i have somewhere i can just go when i get stressed out, which lately has been a ton. i absolutely don't want to leave my boyfriend just thinking about it brings me to tears, we've come so far in our relationship and i dont want to have to take two steps back when i leave. so blacksburg why don't you just move here or be like 15 minutes away that would solve most everything, and would be wonderful. i just want to move into my apartment and go out thats about the only driving force i have pushing me to go i mean i do want to go back and summer to go on, but i have so much going on in mechanicsville right now and i'm not sure if i'm ready to leave that. atleast leaving this year is for the second time so hopefully it won't be as hard as last year but leaving usa is always incredibly hard and this year it might actually be worse i've done so much there this summer learned most everything that it took me 12 years to learn on summer saturdays gotten so much closer to moe and i just dont want to leave that.
if you asked me a year ago to imagine where i'd be at now i would never be able to guess correctly, sure i knew i wanted to be at virginia tech but never in a million years did i 100% think i'd be there, but i am. i'm a hokie, something i've worked for since highschool, honestly one of the hardest things i've ever worked for. a year ago i never thought i'd be working my ass off at a slave shop up in ashland. a year ago i did know i'd still have my two incredible bestfriends to go to WHENEVER i need and i am truely thankful for that, a year ago i never though i'd be living with emily in the upcomming school year, a year ago i never thought i'd have an amazing boyfriend to add to my list of bestfriends who just completes me, i never thought i'd have someone i'd be able to trust like i do, especially someone in mechanicsville, a year ago i neverrrrrrrr thought i'd be debating cheering, the choice to cheer is most likely the hardest decision i've been faced with yet, i honestly have no idea, but why wouldnt i being a virginia tech cheerleader is something i've definitely dreamed of for the last 4 years atleast so the fact that i'm not even sure i want to go through with it completely boggles my mind. anyways this summer has been amazing apart from the working all the time, and i mean all the time, not seeing my bestfriends except in the work setting which really doesnt count, but really other than all that it's been great, i had orientation this past weekend and even though they treated us like we were all 4 year olds i had the best time that weekend and it made me so much more excited about next year, i absolutely can't wait to start classes, i can't wait to move in with emily and have our own apartment, and i definitely can't wait going out with jessica loren because i miss those nights dearly, but along with all that excitement i cant help but to think about leaving my boyfriend something that's going to more than tear me apart on the inside, something that im really going to need my bestfriends for, something thats going to add to my hardest things i've ever had to do list. however august is less than 2 months away and i'm sure ill want it to happen then
my freshman year of college is over in 2 and a half weeks, and i have no idea how i feel about that. actually i do. i don't want to leave, i don't want to leave at all. i don't want change one bit. everything is going perfectly and i don't want it to end. even though that really the only people i hang out with on a regular and constant basis are people from mechanicsville so obviously i'm going to be able to see them it's still going to be different. i don't want to leave my complete freedom at the steps of muse in 3 thursdays i have no desire to leave and drive back to mechanicsville. the only good thing is all my bestfriends will be even closer than they are now. nights in the loren basement will start up again and late night swinging with kenny i'm sure. everyone's going to be much closer but i still dont want it to end. i'm loving college and college life right now. classes don't bother me for the fact that i see people i love every other day and that's enough for me. i think i've finally found someone worth my time and worth my heart. i think i've finally found someone who for the first time respects me and won't treat me like shit. i know i've finally found someone that my bestfriends approve of and that's a huge deal. i know i've finally found someone who i can be my complete self around and act as goofy as i do around my bestfriends and that's a huge deal as well. freshman year has come and gone, and i wouldn't change a damn thing about it.
i absolutely love how everything's been going. my weekends keep getting better and better. i couldn't ask for anything else. i'm more than happy and i adore it. spring break is next week and i can not wait. i miss being this happy <3
second semester has started and i wouldn't change any of it at all. i absolutely love the way its going so far and i'm a lot more happier than i was last semester. i've been to tech once and i do miss being able to see jessica as much as i used to but its okay. i've grown so much already this semester and i can't wait to see where i end up. i hear from tech soon and as it gets closer i think about it more and more. next year is going to bring so many good things or bad. getting into tech will be a dream come true and i honestly think ill scream if i get in i've never worked for something so much in my life. emily and i finally heard from terrace view and we sign our lease within the next few weeks. its official, even if i dont get into tech ill be in blacksburg. which is going to make so many other things so much easier and i can't wait. august 15, 2008 mark the date. and as much as i don't want second semester to end because i dont want to leave everyone here i can't wait to be in the ville again and to work and make money, the sooner the semester ends the sooner i start a better year. i'm sooo excited for sophomore year and to see what it brings, but i have to finish this semester out. and saying goodbye is going to be one of the hardest things to do, saying goodbye to you, saying goodbye to tara, all my nova boys and all my babies at tech is going to kill me. so until then i'm going to finish these 3 months out with a bang and enjoy every second of them. i'm not sure where its going to put you and i and i'm not really sure where we're at now but i'm excited i like where we are now and i really just dont want to change it. we're having fun, and youre there for me a lot more than you used to be and i love that. its stress free right now and thats exactly how it should be.
